Alcohol—Kim Jaejoong (JYJ Music Essay)
Intoxicated, like dragging a heavy bag
Standing in front of the entrance, pressing in the key code
But somehow, I cannot recall the key code that I have memorized by heart
Why did I drink so much to the point of being drunk?Don’t know if you guys have ever done this before?
Don’t want to watch TV, don’t want to play the piano, don’t want to read any books
And don’t want to look at the people walking back and forth in that world beyond my window
I want to hide
Intoxicated, like dragging a heavy bag
Standing in front of the entrance, pressing in the key code
But somehow, I cannot recall the key code that I have memorized by heart
Why did I drink so much to the point of being drunk?Don’t know if you guys have ever done this before?
Don’t want to watch TV, don’t want to play the piano, don’t want to read any books
And don’t want to look at the people walking back and forth in that world beyond my window
I want to hide
In the end, I can only lie on the sofa motionlessly
Have no urge to move, only stare blankly at the cactus
As I was staring at the cactus I suddenly realized I was talking to myself, “Am I feeling a little bit lonely?”
The fate of a cactus is that if the heart of his core have been fiddled with, his life would be shortened
The cactus seems to say to me, “you are lonely, just like me”Lonely, frustrated, depressed
There’s nowhere I can go to let out my feelings
At that time, the only friend I could find, was alcohol
The fate of a cactus is that if the heart of his core have been fiddled with, his life would be shortened
The cactus seems to say to me, “you are lonely, just like me”Lonely, frustrated, depressed
There’s nowhere I can go to let out my feelings
At that time, the only friend I could find, was alcohol
But this thing
I would definitely despise it tomorrow
However, I think I would nonetheless continue to pursue it
Credits: TVXQBaidu
Trans: princessepiggy @ DBSKnights
OOO..JJ don’t make me cies.pls!
“I would definitely despise it tomorrow
However, I think I would nonetheless continue to pursue it”
oh baby, you are just like me
I hate it when you feel lonely but..anyway. Everybody sometimes feel lonely even there are lots of people around us.
cant say I dont understand his feeling
“Don’t want to watch TV, don’t want to play the piano, don’t want to read any books
And don’t want to look at the people walking back and forth in that world beyond my window
I want to hide”
T__T
because I understand exactly how it is, I feel even more sad for him. ahh if only I could give him a big hug. It really breaks my heart to know he’s that lonely
Im worried too. If he keeps “pursuing” this how can his poor liver handle it
Fans, please dont send him alcohol anymore Q__Q
this is scary… I think our joongie’s an alcoholic… Um scared that this will cause damage to his liver. I mean, he smokes too. Please joongie, please keep it to a limit… We dont wanna lose u too soon…
-cries-
Even when i don’t know how this feeling is, it hurts.
I want to give him a hug so bad
But i’m glad that he shows us his true feeling.
Please JJ oppa, don’t drink too much. Please think about your health too.
I’ve heard that Yunho and Changmin are also into alcohol lately, but i feel more worried about Jaejoong. The way he said about alcohol is so depressed, i mean,… he’s really that lonely *big huges*, Pls God send anyone who can always cheer him up in times like this. I wanna see smiling Jaejoong, not alcoholic Jaejoong!
i can totally relate to how he feels in regards to feeling lonely inside.
Lol JJ . cheer up boy , life dont deserve all this thinking , its so short , just live it where it will road u & enjoy it : ) ,,sigh..TT
I think we should trend on tw something like Jaejoongpleasedontdrink ? Let he knows we are very worry ?
I’m in bb!
he needs a girlfriend, or fuku-san. whatever. /bricked
I feel so sad for him whenever he mentioned how he relieved stress by drinking
I think our Jaejoong needs a girlfriend >”<
TT^TT
Yikes.
I understand loneliness, when I’m down, I sleep.
Life can suck hard sometimes.
Interesting candid poem.
It’s kind of sad though.
This one shot of his life that he invites us in
gives me flashbacks. I’ve seen it before.
Lay off the bottle before the kids please.
soooo sad:-(
JaeJoongie please don’t drink so much anymore!!!!
Alcohol isn’t a soloution…..never!!!!
I realized that you have many good friends….and they will always stay by your side because they proved that they are true friends and true friends never let their friend down!!!!!!!!
T_________________T
this has seriously killing me, jj i hope you can find the ultimate happiness soon
jejuung???please…dont drink too much.if u feel lonely,please remember u have us?your family?u r not alone?guys?should we sing you’re not alone by mj?our poor boy,otukeeee???im crying river now,its hurt to see his sadnes…god?please guard him?im affraid now????
jejung?dont make your family affraid?omg?im worry about him now?jimmieee???do you know his condition now?please????reply me???
wow, starting to worry…seems like he has some serious problems
Omo I feel so sad for Jae Oppa. It can only get better you’ll be okay were all here for you and so are your friends and family don’t stress so much and its not good to turn to drinking to solve your problems be healthy honey and don’t worry about the small stuff your strong you made it this far you can make it through anything you and the boys. Remember we are always with you and not just because your Hero we love the real Kim Jaejoong as well(and not in a creepy way lol) keep smiling and don’t let the haters bring you down.
Its about alcohol and there’s nothing pretty that he wrote in this essay, still im amuse at how beautiful he worded his thought and emotion. This guy is so artistic and talented in writing. Since this depression piece bothered me a lot yesterday I email this to one my lecturer, she’s a psychologist (well specialized in Criminology). I asked for her opinion She said this is a thought of a patient with symptoms of alcoholic depression. She thought Jaejoong’s a patient. And I said its an essay/poem. She said well she cant give 100% diagnostic since she didnt meet him and didnt know his medical history yet she said what he wrote is what a person with depression and drown himself in alcohol will wrote. She added but Jaejoong wrote it in an essay/word/express himself through writing and music is a positive indication that Jaejoong had a way to express himself rather than shutting himself from the world. Maybe this is he’s way of telling people he need help, and through support from the people that read it will help him overcome he’s issue. So people lets support JYJ Music Essay and give positive feedback, word of encouragement since this might signal the cue for us to respond to him. Jaejoong, Junsu and Yuuchun need our love the most in this period of time. Let’s support him. Honestly Their Rooms is a door that we shouldnt open. It was a wounded diary. All the essay were sadness, frustration, anger, hopelessness and sorrow that been beautifully drawn and wrote of self expression in the name of freedom. The need us the most now and forever.
i agree they need our support more than ever, fans should ignore the lame a$$ haters and write amazing things about the guys. im worried for all 3, ive been worried since the whole situation got worse. i feel sad and heartbrooken to know that he uses alcohol for his depression. i want him to be really happy with no worried but of course that may be alttle to much to ask but this makes me want to support JYJ more than ever
JYJ FIGHTING
Oh my…. jae oppa… please we beg you…. don’t drink too much…. we feel like dying to know that you relieve your stress by drinking and this whole situation doesn’t help at all this ugly condition shouldn’t ruin your health!! go to yoosu or jiji or tweet or family and whatever but please don’t drink…. we don’t wanna lose you… we love you too much
Jae.. what u write is~~~ not beautiful thing at all..
sad, lonely, frustrated, depressed…and alcohol.
Sometimes i despise u because u really bound urself with TVXQ so much… i really surprise u live alone after law suit, after all u are the one who said, “i want to live with my member even if i get married.” u also the one who said, “Why did I start singing? I don’t know. Why I wanted to sing…I don’t know. Music made me who I am today. Really, why did I work so hard to sing? I don’t know. But if there is a reason, it must be because of Tohoshinki’s members.”
I despise the one who take cassiopeia and TVXQ from you.. but as ur fan, I want you to move on.. look at ur fans behind you.. we love you for what you are, you the one who often show ur flaws despised look cold and cool but these flaws also what make me love you.. hope tomorrow will be better for u…
May be u will need alcohol again in the future, because i am sure u have many problems to be resolved…but please find someone who u can leaned on…
*can’t believe my self until today this guy become my ultimate bias… this guy always make me happy and worried at the same time.. -_-
he is human too and i can understand his tough time, I think they dont live together anymore because they have been together forever, so now they need their space so if they have girlfriends, they can you know..use your imagination hahahaha
actually that comment just my rant ~_^ especially paragraph 2&3…
yes he’s human.. i think he often to show his humanity side more than other member.. *sigh* that child… U_U
lol, let use love to educate him lol but the thing is i’m way younger than him, haahha so he will probably make fun of me if I tried to
@JYJ_fan about your comment lol ive been wondering about this for a while i know its not my business but im curious. ok so the guys have lived together for a long time so i wondered if they are still you know lol cuz they have gf in the past and men tend to get really horny soooo yea. ahhh my imagination soo went wild
but I dont support his alcohol habit either, hope he quits soon.
I think everyone used to have this feeling to, just exactly like Jaejoong’s feeling.
We are all had bad day, good day but it depends on how we look and surpass it.
Please be happy Jaejoong!
i almost cried… if it weren’t so beautiful… his poem i mean…
it is a cry for help… and with jae still being able to say it in front of people (their recent guesting…) and in this form (a poem), I believe he’s still making a conscious effort to try to stop it but he needs help.
i do hope his family will start to talk to him about this or Junsu or Yoochun will suggest professional help as soon as possible…
he is the member who has the most family members but feels so alone… such irony…
“Have no urge to move, only stare blankly at the cactus”
it seems weird for me to stare blankly at the cactus since he have the cute jiji with him but…it remaind me of his birthday present from his soulfighter in on show in japan.anyone still remember that?
i really think this is one of his creative ways to try to contact/send message toward his love one. we all know how sweet and loving his heart is…it sure reflected in his honest writting bluntly..
Jaejoong please don´t drink much TTT___TTT, it´s not good for your health.. Oppa please
Jj is so lyrical…his words are so sad and honest…and though I worry for him I can’t help but be enlightened by his essay