FANACCOUNT 1: “The thing embedded in heart, it has its own language.”
I just came back from San Jose, a trip lasting two days and one night with my foster mother, Sherri. Although she is not a fan of JYJ, I was able to persuade her to come with me, for I do not want to go by myself at all.
On Saturday, June 3, I arrived at the San Jose International Airport around noon. I ate dinner at lightning speed. Around 6:45pm, Sherri said, “You really want to go right now? We still have blah blah blah and I have not finished eating yet!” I didn’t even wait for her to finish her sentence and screamed out loud, “MOM, WE’RE LATEEEEE!” as I pulled her along with me. We got to the concert around 7:00pm.
What I can see from the outside:
When you step upon the stairs, you will see a few girls from JYJ4SJ handing out lightsticks. The lightsticks look like this:
Handmade fan banner made before I left
I didn’t have much time to look around so I went straight into stadium. It took only two minutes for my tickets to be verified. Most of the audience was Asians, which is not surprising at all, because San Jose is a city where most Asians live. However, there was audience of different color as well. As I stepped through the doors, I saw a big screen in the middle with the words “JYJ” running across it.
I asked myself, “I arrived? I finally got here?” I then got to my seat. The theater inSan Joseis the smallest one. 4,500 tickets were sold. Looking at the seat arrangements, I realized how much they cared for the audience, because they could’ve used up all the space, especially the section Floor ($150-$180, tax not included). However, that particular section was empty, because it would have been hard to see the stage from there. The last three or four sections all the way in the back were not sold either. So was the 2 sections on the sides of the stage. I sat in the Section Floor Row S Seat 1. Although I purchased my ticket on the first day tickets were sold, I can’t believe the $180 seat were all sold out!!! Looking around, I estimated 99.99% of the seats were filled, with the exception of the spaces I mentioned above.
There were Mickey ears on each seat. It was meant for Yoochun’s birthday. I had the feeling I was surrounded by Chunsas and I am one Jaeharem. The girl that sat in front of me must also be a Yoochun fan. She wore a hat, shaped like a birthday cake with the words, “Micky.” Since it was dark, I wasn’t sure if she was holding fans. However, I can see whatever it is she was holding, it was filled with Yoochun’s pictures. The girl that sat next to me was also a Chunsa.
The screen played a tutorial on the flashmob’s dance moves for Be My Girl. The entire place went dark and the fans started to shout. Each time the screen showed a JYJ member, it was as if the svd exploded.
I didn’t scream, but only clapped my hands, because I wanted to save my energy for later. Both of my legs started to shake. “JYJ” was a name I had only heard and seen on television. Is this reality? I counted day by day, even before I bought the tickets. I couldn’t control my own legs anymore.
Do you hear all the screaming? The temperature started to rise. A lot of fans left their seats and ran towards the stage to see better. It was getting quite chaotic. I did not move, but my eyes got wider and wider as I saw them right there in front of my very own eyes. Although the song, “Empty” was a fast paced song, I felt the time around me was frozen. I couldn’t see anyone else, but JYJ. Those three important people…This was not a dream…
The security guards did a wonderful job. They asked the fans to go back to their seats and cleared up the area around the stage.
I’m sorry that I’m unable to remember all the details. From here, I will tell what I can remember and not necessarily in order. I apologize.
JYJ sang continuously. By the third song, they were covered in sweat, especially Junsu. However, that does not mean their voice diminished in any way.
They took a little break and talked to the audience. Yoochun speaks English very well and therefore was full of confidence. When Yoochun turned to face Jaejoong, trying to tell him that it was his turn to talk, Jaejoong looked lost. He scratched his head and was very hesitant, trying to see how patient the fans were. When he moved his lips a little, all the fans were very engaged in what he was about to say. Finally, all he could do was laugh gawkily, “ah…ha…ha…ha…ahhaha.” You just have to see his face right then. Afterwards, he spoke in Korean. Although I couldn’t understand what he was saying, I still smiled. The love I have for him is indescribable. Su was a little bit better but he still spoke in Korean. When JaeSu were talking, Chun just laughed. It made me curious >.<”. Yup, after a while, JaeSu proved that their skills were as good as that Mouse (I mean, Mickey, oops, Micky Yoochun). Jae said “Hope you guys enjoy the show”.
Yoochun, I always hear the comments from others such as “he is sexy, manly”. I think his aura is awe inspiring, don’t misunderstand me. It is like a magnet, really attractive. With only a gaze or a random gesture, you cannot escape from him, especially when he wears black suits. Let’s smile, Chunsas. Tonight, his solo performance “I Love You” did not include the ‘sensual dance’ ^^. Yoochun’s voice was deep and warm. I really love his voice in “Found You”.
Junsu “duck butt”, ash, I forgot to look into his most famous part, T^T. Although I know Junsu’s voice is perfect, I never cry because of his solo audios. However, tonight for the first time I cried only to “I Can Soar” during the concert. It was beautiful, truly beautiful. I could feel his burning passion and the emotions tearing from his heart. There were several parts that I thought that if they were sung by other singers, their larynx could have broken. He sang with all the soul he had.
Jaejoong, you know what was the first thing I thought when you doffed your jacket in “Still In Love”, ‘so thin’, Jaejoong-ah. I didn’t feel your body was sexy or hot, it was like someone shot my heart, I was so worried. Jaejoong-ah, please eat more, sleep more, take better care of yourself. Jaejoong-ah your face was angelic, but I didn’t like those black eye bags you had even with make up on. I didn’t know how to describe my feelings when you sang “I don’t care if you love me or not”, and the last part of the song. I didn’t cry, but my camera was folded down. Your voice was unbelievable, so strong and sorrowful.
It seemed that because there were not any really sexy touches in Yoochun’s solo, the fans cheered more enthusiastically when the girl dancers performed ^^ hehe
MC (?) then appeared and said that we had a special event tonight. The whole room was more boisterous ^^, the Mickey ears shined. Then they brought a cake and read messages of JYJ’s fans (according to what I knew, these fans already contacted Powerhouse before the concert started in order to have permission to hold this surprising event for our Yoochun). We all sang “Happy b-day” to Yoochun. “Happy b-day to you, happy b-day to you, happy b-day dear Micky/Yoochun” [we were a little bit confused between “Micky” and “Yoochun”. It sounded like “MicChun” xDDD]. Yoochun smiled a lot. After the staffs left the stage, JYJ remained…
They gathered together…hugged…all 3 of them…
I swear that I saw a bright smile on Jae’s face! Such as Chun and Su!!!
That smile made my eyes tear up but I didn’t cry, on the contrary, I smiled happily. A very short moment, but it was priceless. I wish I could stop time, I wish I could go back, just once more. Their smiles were not affected; their smiles did not come from “acting”. They were natural. The arms put over the shoulders; there was no distance between the 3. They stick together, even if you use any weapon, you cannot ‘cut’ their bond.
The next song, Yoo-Su both wore Mickey ears, Jae did not. So Su put one on Jae’s head, and they gathered again. It was cute!
…A singular bond – between the 3 and us fans.
When they left the stage, the fans started shout loudly, the only sound I could hear was…
The fans on the left side started first. Within 0.0000000000000001 second, it was like fire burning through the room. I thought even if anyone brought the sound set from Tokyo Dome, it would have been amplified., I felt guilty for the owner when we stamped on the floor. LoL. Cassies, JYJ fans, Jaejoong fans, Yoochun fans, and Junsu fans could not be distinguished. All we knew that night… together…
Whenever the screen aired the word “JYJ” slowly, everyone started to scream, as though JYJ would come back again. But they did not ^^. I could hear the sighs, and the screaming continued louder than before. My decision to save my voice was well thought. LoL. Fan-chants lasted for 5 minutes continuously. It seemed short, but imagine if we shouted 5 times every 2 or 3 seconds, you would understand.
They came back! Yay! “Be My Girl” remix and flash-mob! To be honest, I never danced at Home Coming or Prom, but in this atmosphere that everyone, old/young, male/female, all stood and danced, how could I sit still? I did not know what I danced, but I knew it was really fun.
The song that everyone expected – “In Heaven” finally came out. The room became quiet. I wondered how many emotions were put into this song? Performed continuously, danced continuously, and sang continuously. Didn’t they feel tired? Didn’t they lose their voices? You could not feel their exhaustion during the concert, from the beginning to the end. Their passion burned without any changes. The melody was not easy like “Fallen Leaves”, but was passionate, enthusiastic, full of pains and sincerities together. How? They sang with their hearts and souls.
In silence, we held a paper, a message:
JYJ hesitated to leave the stage at this time, but they still had to complete the show. They held their hands together, bowed 90 degrees. The cheers were tumultuous.
Yes! The concert ended. No one wanted to leave their seats, including myself. Sherri came and shook my shoulders “Hey Alicia, hey…” Within 3 seconds, I could not recognize who she was. I was motionless. It is heard to explain my feelings at that time, like I was somewhere else, following their footsteps.
Oh, I as able to send my letter to Jae with a staff member, and was told it would be delivered.
Above are the people waiting at the parking lot, because they wanted to see JYJ one more time. Then the security staff came out and asked us to go home. Sherri was kind of tired so we went home.
I could not sleep that night, could not pay attention to anything. The 2 hour-concert was not enough. The Audios/MVs/DVDs/Vids/etc did not do them justice! Their live is perfect. Now I can understand why all the fan-accounts I read before said: “This is something that you have to witness with your own eyes”. Words cannot express.
They are 3 people who fight against those huge powers; who cannot appear on TV, who were canceled numerous times, who always meet difficulties? Why they are so strong? You can tell even if you have not seen them in person: their passions, their desires, and their pure hearts. On the top, the undying love and ceaseless support from the loyal fans give them through many years. Fall? Of course, but the thing is, they know how to stand up and conduct their business. I will use the word “mature”. They are truly real men. I love them deep in my heart, it is not like the relation ship between boy-friend/girl-friend. It is more than that. They are my family, especially Jaejoong. His happiness is always at my first place. I stop comparing them to any other groups, because they are so different. In the past, I used to be curious “How many copies do JYJ sell?” “JYJ is at #1 on this or that ranking, right?” Now, they are replaced with “Are they fine? Are they happy? Can they receive the proper amount they make?” One of my friend (non-fan), ask me, “How can you know their real personalities?” I just smile, because the thing embedded in heart, it has its own language.
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FANACCOUNT 2: “Their North American Tour ended so successfully and with so much love”
Before I write anything at all about this fan account, I just want to make everything clear – I was astonished by how JYJ were just like how we were in everything that we’ve ever seen, even for the most dedicated fan that has watched every single obscure fancam. They are that silly, they are that smart, they are that deep, and they are that genuine. They are also very solidly JYJ, and have formed their own identity.
From before the concert, I arrived at the San Jose State University Event Center around an hour before doors opened. We saw very large banners for JYJ, courtesy of JYJ4SJ, and were given free bookmarks and lots of helpful advice from the JYJ4SJ team. In all honesty, the successful fan projects are really all due to JYJ4SJ, and we really need to give credit to their team and everyone involved. They were the ones who got the birthday cake to Yoochun, who got the Micky Ears for everyone, and gave every attendee fingerlights, as well as prepared fanchants and other media for out-of-towners to have a flawless time at the San Jose Concert. Credit and kudos to all of their hard work.
One of the most amusing things about the concert is that when the doors opened, we all lined up at the stairs, and then everyone just rushed in – it was like a very organized stampede, with dots of red from clothing to support JYJ. As we entered the venue, I was personally really astonished – it was so small and intimate, and no matter where you sat, you got an incredible view of JYJ. I sat in Row B, Seat 1, towards the center and on the left side of the stage, so this particular fan account will have quite a bit of Junsu.
I think my favorite part pre-concert was viewing all the attendees – there was so much variety, and entire families went, and there was not only many Asian fans of different ethnicities, but also many non-Asian fans in general – sea of diversity. It also helped that more than 1,000 attendees were wearing free Micky Ears, courtesy of JYJ4SJ (thanks!)
All the vocals were on point during the entire concert, but the stereo system wasn’t that great, with too much bass that drowned out their voices, even during ballads. Regardless, they gave very powerful and on point performances. All-in-all, JYJ were very ‘present’ and with us, because they were all more than happy to be here in San Jose. The backup dancers were also really incredible, and looked like they had a great time performing with JYJ, so I’m happy that they were here as well.
I’m only going to write significant parts that I remember from the songs, but they were very significant indeed! I spent most of my time with my DSLR taking photos, so please anticipate those photos as well!
Empty – When they started the song so that we all thought that JYJ were in the empty glass boxes, but then the song actually started and they rose up on the platforms. Everyone went absolutely hysterical at this point, so that was a genius move on their part. In fact, it was so intense, it seemed like everyone in the room was filled with the sudden realization that yes, we are seeing JYJ in the flesh. As they walked down towards the center stage, I got pushed forward, so suddenly we were all crowded up against the fence near the center stage. The security guards were nice and let us stay until after Nine and IDS, but honestly, there’s really nothing like being incredibly close to them. I was directly on the side of Junsu and Jaejoong when they were dancing IDS, and to be so close to their presence is really something else, like you get the feeling that they very solidly exist. Junsu is an incredibly amazing dancer, he’s so powerful but very soft with his movements, and is definitely one of a kind. Some of the movements he made were so incredibly fluid and took performance to another level, and were very reminiscent of his slick movements during Intoxication.
Be My Girl – Because Junsu was constantly on my side, I’ll write this: he was so incredibly happy and cute, his eyes shone like a little kid’s, honestly. Junsu lights up like fireworks, and he’s just so so happy to be here and to see all of us. He kept maneuvering close to our side of the crowd, and the way he was dancing, it was like he was motioning the crowd to go join him. Very charismatic, and he was really happy to see us.
Ayy Girl – it’s really beautiful in motion, honestly, and they started with a group huddle, which I thought was enormously adorable and very JYJ – it truly shows their closeness and the intimacy that they wanted to bring to the entire concert, and to let the fans know that they are also with them in their hearts.
Mission/Be The One – these two songs were incredible in how much they brought their strength and intensity to the songs, their charisma really came out here with how synchronized they are, yet with each their own energy. Junsu danced with a very solid but fluid feel, Yoochun had a very punk feeling where he was bringing his own style (think how he would dance during Mirotic), and Jaejoong was a little softer and relaxed.
I Love You (Yoochun solo) – not as scandalous as the one in New Jersey, not even close, and the fans were actually quite well-mannered. Yoochun definitely was very concentrated and focused, and did very well, and the backup dancers are absolutely phenomenal and professional – I’m very happy that JYJ worked with such a good team for their concert, they need to be respected on their own merits as well.
I Can Soar – I think it’s safe to say this; Junsu definitely deserves all the praise he gets as a singer and more. He puts so much into his singing, and Junsu really rips it loose and lets it all flow out, and his adlibs are incredible – almost like a sonic boom at some points, especially when he dives back in and out. It just washes over you with an incredible energy.
Still in Love – Jaejoong is very gorgeous, and he definitely also did well with the dancers to bring a type of sensuality to the concert. The fans were still also very well-mannered as well, so it was really pleasant to see Jaejoong complete his performance. He also looked a little thinner than usual, which showed through the mesh shirt he wore.
Chajatta/Found You – JYJ were incredibly happy and smiling at the opening notes, and looking at each other, as there was a feeling that we were heading into the second half of the concert, when everything really just starts to begin. Junsu was starting to cry, but he was holding back the tears, the type of tears that happen when you’re really positively overjoyed with what is happening right now, with all the memories flooding back. He was also so very sweet, and he and I made eye contact a few times, which was very very startling, but I kept my cool because I needed to shoot good photos, but it made me really happy that he, and the rest, all do care so very very much about their fans, and value every single one of them to look towards the audience and acknowledge that we are here. During the “Saranghae” part, before they even started singing the “Saranghae” part of the chorus, the entire venue screamed “Saranghae!” out loud, and Junsu was visibly taken aback and then smiled the sweetest smile ever as we kept continuing to scream out the Saranghae fanchant.
Second introduction: When Jaejoong was done speaking after being shy, he then asked Junsu to talk, but he didn’t really know, so he just said in Chinese “xiexie” or Thank you, and everyone cracked up because it was so hilarious. Oh Junsu, never change.
But this is the most important part: right after that, when Junsu paused to speak, a girl in front of me screamed “OH MY GOD SUN!” right at Junsu. Junsu then stopped what he was doing, bit his lip and started thinking in confusion, as Jaejoong and Yoochun started cracking up and pointing at Junsu. Junsu then smiled and regained his composure to keep on talking, but really, incredible props to that fan for eliciting that reaction.
Fallen Leaves – all of them poured so much emotion into it, it was so distinctly different from the recording (especially Yoochun) that it startled me – such a beautiful song just felt much more raw. Junsu was verging on almost crying completely at this point, and tried hiding it when the lights were dimmed when it was not his part. This was really heart-warming to see, not because I wish for him to cry, but really, those were tears of joy, as he was so visibly overwhelmed with adoration and happiness. I also believe that Jaejoong was starting to wipe away some tears, from the motion I saw of his hand. In fact, this is the most emotional version of Fallen Leaves I have witnessed, and I’ve watched all the fancams – it seemed like all three of them had their voices crackling with heavy emotion, regarding how they felt that night.
Be My Girl remix – funnest thing of the night, so ridiculous. At the beginning, I only paid attention to Junsu, as he was right in front of me, and he really enjoyed that flashmob dance. During the pose section, the first time he pointed towards us, so each time we would reach the pose part of the dance, I found myself posing back at him along with everyone else, and he’d smile. I again made eye contact with him, as I found myself looking back into his eyes, which was still really startling, but he was really sweet and smiled when he noticed and he continued dancing along. Junsu had such a youthful amount of energy that it just flowed into everything. It was literally like there were no real divides between the audience and JYJ – we were all dancing together to the music and having a ridiculous great time. Then they later switched over, so Yoochun came to our side, but he was a little awkward and stiff in comparison to the enthusiasm presented in the rest of the crowd, which was really cute, since he was still a good sport and danced along with everyone else while working the crowd.
Happy Birthday Yoochun!
It was a great surprise, but wow. JYJ4SJ, on the behalf of all the San Jose attendees, gifted a cake and Micky Ears to everyone on the staff, and we all sang a Happy Birthday to Yoochun. It was so adorable to see Junsu and Yoochun put on the ears. Junsu resembled a teddy bear, and Yoochun looked so youthful and like a little kid when he smiled, and he was really shy when he put on the Micky Ears as everyone sang to him. While Jay Slaughter sang (since I think that’s who it was, since I saw him before from another fancam), he said Micky instead of Yoochun, which is okay, but it was really heartwarming to see Yoochun’s face light up from all the love expressed. Jaejoong and Junsu also completed with a lovely, subtle harmony at the end. Yoochun also was very smart, because he asked “Who made it?” and Jay said “The fans,” he later turned around and said thank you, which is really really great to see, because we all care for him and JYJ so much.
Jaejoong and Junsu also looked at each other like they were scheming to smash the cake into Yoochun’s face. The cake was a single-layer white cake with chocolate and red velvet (that a JYJ4SJ member told me it contained) and it had a sculpture of a piano, very fitting for Yoochun. But, it didn’t really work out like that, since Junsu, also wearing Micky Ears, decided to poke at the piano sculpture out of curiosity, and after Junsu thoroughly amused himself ( it actually looked like it was Junsu’s birthday cake when he was doing that) I guess they decided to not cake Yoochun.
The next song they sang, You’re, they were all really happy and the smiles from Yoochun’s gratification still shined. After they were crossing over, I noticed that Jaejoong and Yoochun were giving eachother weird looks as they were gonna enter the center stage. They then both suddenly went into low bows with their arms out, as if demanding one of them goes first, which was so hilarious and adorable. Yoochun also made eye contact with me at one point, but it was a little amusing because he kept looking back before we finally acknowledged eachother.
They then had a really cute moment, where a girl ran up to Junsu and gave him Micky Ears, that he later put on Jaejoong’s head as they sang their parts to him, and it fell off while he attempted to put it on. So cute, you can really see how close they all are. Jaejoong’s ending melody was so lush with affection and softness that it sounded so sweet. Then they all stuck their microphones into Junsu’s face, and he, being clueless, quickly says ‘Thank you,” instead of singing the final line, oh my gosh, never change Junsu. They all crack up and Junsu bows, with all three wearing Micky Ears.
Boy’s Letter is also incredible – the ending adlib by Junsu sent chills down my spine. Each time he would dive into it again, it was so incredibly energetic and strong, that you only knew that Junsu could have sung that particular note.
At the encore, at the last time they bowed, they bowed for a good 10 seconds, and said a few words to us again. They didn’t leave immediately after, in fact they hung around on stage for a good minute or two, and they were communicating to each other without speaking, through eye contact. It looked as if they didn’t want to leave us at all. This might have been aided by the hundreds of “Gajima/Don’t Go!/USA Loves JYJ!” signs held by all the fans, and how we kept crying Gajima during In Heaven and afterwards.
Sadly, they eventually did have to leave. Yoochun drifted a little behind the other two, and waved to us, but it was sad to see them go. When the concert ended, it had the feeling of inviting a very close friend that you have not seen in years over for catching up, and then, they suddenly had to leave, after only one conversation and a few sips of tea. I will speak on the behalf of what I’m sure everyone else is thinking: we want them to come back, please.
In summary: if they had to choose any concert to do a recording, they really should choose the San Jose stop. Not only because they gave impeccable performances, not only for all the precious, impromptu moments in all the songs, even not only because it was Yoochun’s birthday, but also because they were just so happy to be there, and that their North American Tour ended so successfully and with so much love.
- Written by Iris X.
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