In 2004, we were the employee of the month, with countless top results, but we couldn’t feel content with just that
We were unable to contain ourselves and we started wanting more.2005, we embarked into the overseas market, we thought everything would go smoothly like it had in Korea.
On our first attempt, we had the worst results possible and that was when my confidence started to drop.A language we couldn’t even speak
Every day we’d be at our lodgings or the office
An imprisonment that they claimed wasn’t an imprisonment, saying it was for our own good
An excessive amount of solitude, tears and rage
These were what made us one
Saying that we couldn’t part ways no matter what happened
Saying that we should always be together
Saying that we should resemble each other’s good points
We said these things in our hearts and kept running
One day, we finally reached that top position we had so earnestly wanted
We each took our phones and contacted our families and friends.
That day had finally arrived.
From then on, everything started to go so well.
Records selling hundreds of thousands, winning every award out there and harvesting the fruits of our labor.
It felt like even when we cried, those tears dropped softly
The reason we were happier than any joy or sorrow
We, who never gave up and ran till the end
The reason we were stronger than anything else, was because we were one
You have already changed. (I can’t stay in that spot forever)
I’ll be the first to turn my back on you. (I can’t be shedding tears forever)
I’ll call out your name, though you keep going so far away (Fly me high into that sky)
We had been running for quite some time.
When we were surrounded by an unexpected, big wall
And the thought, ‘Has it always been this dark’ stayed in my head for a long time.
Once, this happened.
With the ever growing business expenses, and the increasing debts
The situation became something I could no longer handle on my own
Our CEO had once said these words to us
Tell me whenever you need something. Because we will always be family to each other.
Tell me whenever you need something.
Remembering those words, I took the courage to call him and ask him a favor.
Though I had this strange feeling inside of me, he was the only person I could rely on back then.
Because we were a family who would stay together forever.
Though I built up the courage to ask him a favor, all I received was a cold refusal.
His words made me so mad, but I contained myself and asked him once more to help me out.
He hung up on me.
I couldn’t stop the tears streaming down my face.
I couldn’t think straight because he wasn’t the family I had always believed he was till then.
When he needed us, we were family to him. When we needed him, we were strangers.
More amazing things happened as more time passed.
Hearing that we had finally struck gold overseas and brought in results so unimaginably astronomical,
I walked into the office with a spring in my step to receive my pay.
Our team members were looking at each other with excited gazes.
We complimented each other on how hard we had worked.
But the statement of accounts we received said we were at a deficit
I thought I had seen the figures wrong so I checked again
Everything was listed under expenses
Damn it, how could all that money have gone towards paying expenses.
What kind of expenses were there to make that much money vanish?
I couldn’t believe my eyes so I asked them to show me the detailed statement of accounts that I had never seen before.
They told me they would show it to me, but I ended up never seeing those few sheets of paper as all I did was work.
The amount of questions I had grew the more time passed.
The headaches grew the more our team members got together and thought about it.
If I was to say just one last thing
Are the things we do for the company
Really and truly things that are for the company?
Sure, let’s say they were. We, the kind souls, will let that one slide.
We will forget it, for the company, and for us, who have been together for so many years.
But that isn’t right, those aren’t things you should be saying to us.
Were you seriously planning on disappointing us till the very end?
When you called, all you did was talk about our team members behind each other’s back, it was so hard to trust you.
This is exactly like what our seniors said. Did you want to keep the ones who’d still willingly make money for you?
A senior told me that the family the company always talked about, would make it hard for us to survive if we left the company
Those words refuse to leave my mind
Though I have so much more to say,
I can’t because I feel so frustrated at the thought that someone will torment us more when this song is released.
Anyway, though life is hard, we are working hard and doing well.
We are trying to really smile though we continue to be tormented by someone.
This effort of ours is not the effort of a mere product.
It is the effort that is driven by the thought
That we want to die with no regrets when we leave this earth.
-Commentary by Yoochun-
Yes, in the end, it’s JYJ.
Yesterday and tomorrow, though I’ve thought about it all day long
I can truly feel the difference between then and now at 25, my age
I will now put this pen down.
But my heart it at ease right now.
Because I am able to feel the love of our fans……
I’m thinking of sharing the load I have kept in my heart all this time.
Though nothing is ever easy, my heart is at ease.
I’m happy because we have our fans for our family,
I’m always thinking of you all……
I love you.
So could you believe in us till the end.
Could you tell us that you love us.
We’ll work hard till forever, so could you stay by our side.
Because we still have you
And you still have us
I promise, that I’ll show you everything eventually.
Yes, we are JYJ.
“You have raised the palace walls and firmly closed the door
They say that love is not imprisonment
Love is letting go to fly freely
But I don’t even expect that much
For we, who you made, are not even worth half of half of half of that.
We are nothing but eternal frogs living in a well.”
(Excerpt from the musical ‘Mozart!’)
Though I still have so much to say
I will end it here.
Have I told you this kind of story before? In 2003, we completed a few months of probation period, and we finished our first task with ease.
In 2004, we were employees of the month, and achieved many best results, but we couldn’t be satisfied with those alone.We weren’t able to endure anymore and we started wishing for more things.
In 2005 we branched overseas, and we thought it would be easy like how it was in Korea.
For our first challenge, we recorded our worst results and from then on, our confidence dropped.A language we couldn’t even speak,
Everyday, we stayed at the place we were living at and our company
They said it was for our own sake and that imprisonment was not an imprisonment.
Extreme loneliness, tears, rage; all of these made us united as one.
Even if anything were to happen by chance, we said that we would not leave each other…
While saying that we would only resemble each other’s good side,
We made up our minds and ran off.
Finally, one day, we achieved the best like how we had earnestly wished for.
We each took our handphones and contacted our family and friends.
That day was approaching,
From then on, everything started turning out well.
Selling tens of thousands of records and winning every award, we felt our results.
Even though tears flowed, it felt like they fell gently.
Because compared to any kind of sadness, we were happy.
Till the end, we do not give up and come running.
Strength greater than any other strength.
As expected, because we were one.
You who have already changed (I can’t always stay there.)
I will turn my back on you first (It wasn’t possible to just keep on crying.)
You, who are going further away from me gradually, I will just call your name. (Please fly me far away to that sky)
Running for a while,
Covered by a huge wall beyond imagination
The thought “Has it always been this dark” remained in my head for a while
Such a thing happened once
Business expenses which were increasing, Debts which kept increasing
Something that I couldn’t handle on my own
This is something our boss said to us in the past
If you need anything, just say it, since we will always be family.
Whatever you need, just say it
Those words gave me courage and I made a phone call to ask for a favour
Though I felt something strange, because he was someone I could rely on,
Because they were a family which would be together with us forever,
I gathered the courage to request the favour, but what I received was just a cold rejection.
Though I was very angry with his reply, I held it in and requested for the favour again.
He hung up.
I couldn’t stop the tears which flowed.
I was in a state of confusion over the thought that they weren’t the family that I had believed they were for that period.
When he needed us, we were family, When we needed him, we were strangers.
It felt that as time went by, more amazing things happened.
Hearing that we had finally created success overseas and achieved results which we never imagined we would,
I entered the office with light steps on our pay day.
We members looked at each other with excited gazes while facing each other.
We praised each other saying that we had worked hard.
But the accounts statement we received at that time recorded that we were at a deficit.
Thinking that I had seen wrongly, I tried verifying again,
Everything were expenses.
Damn, How could that huge amount have been solely used to cover the expenses?
What kind of expenses? Where did that huge sum of money fly to?
I couldn’t believe it at all so I requested that they show me the detailed statement of the accounts which I had never calculated before.
They said they understood and they would show it to me, but in the end, I never saw those pieces of paper and only worked.
As time went by, my curiosity grew.
The more we put our heads together to think about it, the more we got a headache.
Lastly, if I were to say just one more thing,
Those things which we did for the company,
Were they truly meant for the company?
Ok, Let’s just say that they were. We are kind and will overlook it.
For us and the company, who have been together for many years, we will forget it.
Even so, that wasn’t right. Those weren’t words you should be saying to us.
Did you really plan to disappoint us right till the very end?
From the calls I received, you talked behind the team member’s back. It was really hard to trust you.
It was exactly as what the seniors had said. Did you want to keep the people who make money for you?
He said the family which we talked about in the company would make things difficult for us if we were to leave to company.
Those words by that senior could not leave my head.
Though there is more that I want to say, when this song gets out,
There would be someone who would torment us. Thinking of this makes me frustrated and I don’t think I can continue.
In any case, though it is tough, we are working hard to live well.
Despite someone tormenting us, we are working hard to really smile.
This is definitely not an effort which we made just for a product.
This is an effort made because as a human, on the day that I die, I do not want to have any regrets.
Yes, in the end it is JYJ.
Yesterday and Today, though I thought for a whole day,
I am able to feel the difference between then and now at 25, my age.
Now I will put down my pen.
Even so, my heart is at ease.
Because I can feel the fans’ love…
I did it because I thought I would be able to empty the pile of burdens I had in my heart.
Though nothing is easy, I am at ease inside.
We are happy because we have a family which is you fans.
I am always thinking of you all…
I love you.
So, will you be able to believe in us till the end?
Will you be able to say that you love us?
Since we will work hard till forever, will you be able to be at our side.
Since, to us, you are still here,
And to you, we are here.
I promise, I will hang out everything and show it to you.
Yes, we are JYJ.
“You have raised the castle walls and closed the door firmly too.
They say that love is not an imprisonment.
Love is releasing someone to be free.
I don’t even wish for such things.
We, made by you, are not even half of half of half of that,
And will forever be frogs in a well.”
(Excerpt from Musical Mozart)
Though there are still many things I want to talk about,
I will stop here today.