This was my first time seeing them even though I have been a fan for years. I’ve actually been an ardent fan of Jaejoong for the whole of that time, and my love for him grows and renews itself every day. Because I already love him so much I felt that perhaps it was not necessary that I ever see him in person. That is probably correct, but seeing Jaejoong in person today I can say that there is something about seeing him in person that adds a new dimension.
I am writing in almost an existential mood. What is the point of loving someone in this way? Whatever the answer is, if I had another chance to do the last x years of my life all over again, I’d choose to love him in this way, every moment, and hope that I knew him from even before.
This concert was particularly meaningful for me as a Jaejoong fan because in everything I could feel Jaejoong. The music that was played in the venue before the show started was a variation of In Heaven. Knowing that Jaejoong planned it so made it exciting. The screen that read JYJ in bright lights—that was also Jaejoong. They were great as they were but I was happy just being there knowing that Jaejoong had done them.
Before the show started the music changed… I think Fallen Leaves played, but with the members voices re-recorded for a softer, lower-toned, acoustic sound. It was beautiful and made me feel afraid that I’d cry during the concert.
I value Jaejoong’s talents but I also value his God-given beauty. I was anxious and curious as to what he would look like. What would he look like? I can’t imagine him looking any better than he does on camera already, but the unanimous voice of Jaejoong fans is that the camera does not do Jaejoong justice. I was a mix of anticipation and fear. Read More →